Welcome to Personality & Spirituality. It’s all about understanding who and what we really are — beyond the personality, to the depths of our innermost being or soul. I’m a psychologist and this is my passion.

The purpose of this website is to be a hub of information, inspiration and occasionally entertainment about who and what we really are — beyond (but including) the personality.

Enjoy! :-)

- barry

A d v e r t i s e m e n t


A dream, awakening, and healing: (3) All shall be well

 

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Collective Vision by Alex Gray (1995) – AlexGray.com

 

On September 8th, 2014, I found myself having a lucid dream.

The dream was evidently orchestrated by some intelligence higher than my own, as I unexpectedly met the group-entity popularly known as “Michael” whose teachings I have been following for the last 15 years or so.

They then proceeded to give me a spiritual initiation — an energetic jump-start known in Hinduism as shaktipat.

At that moment I experienced full-on self-realisation and Kundalini awakening, and my life was transformed.

Immediately after that moment:

  • My painful and debilitating state of chronic fatigue (CFS/ME), which had plagued me every day for the last six years and four months vanished in an instant.
  • My body transformed from being sick and run-down to being fit, healthy and buzzing with vitality.
  • My mind became a still, quiet pool of interconnected concepts and memories, available when needed, but otherwise without thought.
  • My awareness became an open field, and expanded far beyond my sensory limitations.
  • My actions became automatically competent, executed masterfully.
  • I somehow “just knew” what to say to others to bring them into clarity.
  • My shyness and self-doubts disappeared altogether.
  • I transformed from an anxious introvert into a super-confident extravert.
  • My everyday personality gave way to a higher Self that was still essentially me, only more so — me without anxiety, me without hiding, me without pretence, just the full power of my presence.

And since then?

Well, so much has happened … it is almost beyond belief. It is an amazing story, and I don’t think it is possible to do the story justice without giving the context of my life history leading up to it. So I will, inevitably, be writing an autobiographical book.

Nevertheless, it feels appropriate — as a sort of integration exercise — that I try to find words to briefly recount and explain the key events and experiences in a more encapsulated form. So here goes.

30 Days and 2 Nights

After that first awakening, I spent an entire month with Kundalini energy raging through me and around me.

I was in a constant altered state, or rather a variety of altered states, giving me insight after insight, inspiration after inspiration, and the utmost joy, love, bliss and peace.

It wasn’t all fun and games, however. As another experiencer of sudden Kundalini awakening has written:

No one gets a free ride.  The opening may be brilliant, transcendent even.  But there will be times of balancing and integration, periods of pain and despair, as one attempts to deal with these unfamiliar energies now infusing ones system, one day mounting into bliss, the next plunging into some kind of pain.

Dorothy Walters PhD,  

Several times an hour I would find myself doing or saying something and would then feel compelled stop to figure which aspect of me had made it happen — the new flow of energy into super-consciousness, or my old personality? Any lack of clarity would impede the flow.

At times the energy was so intense that I was hyperactive and manic. I was having profound insights and revelations faster than I could say them, thought that didn’t stop me from trying, blurting out random gems of wisdom to strangers in the street. And I was exploding with wild enthusiasm, delight and laughter, seemingly over every little thing in every moment.

For my family, at times it was just a bit too much of “me” all at once.

And then: at around 4 AM on October 8th, 2014, I found myself having a second lucid dream.

It was exactly 30 days since that first lucid dreaming / awakening experience.

This time, I found myself being drawn or ushered to the very centre of the universe, the eye of the cosmos, the throbbing Source of creation, the Tao itself, the heart and soul of all-that-is. And then I experienced ecstatic communion with it.

In this state of communion, not only did I receive the answers to every question I have ever wondered about the nature of self, the meaning of life, the origins of the universe, the purpose of our existence, etc … I also became one with the Source, repeatedly.

Or to put it more precisely, I knew myself to be both creator and created at the same time, and I was able to switch between both perspectives at will.

I also realised how creation works, and why it is so.

Frankly, it was almost too much.

Meanwhile …

Tea and Toast

As far as my mystified family were concerned, I was sleepwalking for the first (and hopefully) last time in my life. Apparently, while having this lucid dream of communion with the Source, I had got out of bed, left the bedroom, opened the linen closet, shouted a few things, and then tried to go downstairs.

My son recognised that I was sleepwalking (having seen it in an episode of Malcolm in the Middle!). My wife Emma then managed to guide me back to a bedroom where I lay down on the floor.

Ever cautious, Emma considered the possibility that I might be having a psychotic breakdown of some sort. However, I was (apparently) able to respond to her questions with reassuring statements like, “Don’t worry, it’s OK. It’s all good. Just let it happen.”

I have no memory of any of this.  My first back-in-the-body conscious experience following my Communion with Source was of lying on the bedroom floor, naked, and being fed tea and toast by Emma.

I was pretty disorientated at first, not quite sure which universe I was in. But at the same time I was in a state of utter peace and happiness. I had received the answer to every question I had ever asked, and I had understood the perfect meaning of each and moment of every life, including my own.

Coming out of the altered state and returning to normality, I felt — and still feel — utter contentment at the prospect of living out the rest of my little, human life. All I want to do is be happy and share that happiness with others.

Since that second lucid dream, just two weeks ago, the volcanic explosion of Kundalini has paused. It’s more like a slow lava flow. I still have a super-normal amount of energy and my body, mind and personality are still feeling fresh, clear and brand new, as though I had, quite literally, been born again. But the crazy, manic tendency has largely  subsided.

All is Well …

Julian of NorwichAs I write this, I am reminded of the great medieval English mystic known as Julian of Norwich (1342–1416).

England in the 14th Century was practically a post-Apocalytpic wasteland devastated by plague, famine and poverty. The Black Death had wiped out half of the population.

Julian [1] was probably a widow. And for years she had prayed for a fatal illness that would take her away too. However, her death-wish was not simply a desire to escape a world of pain. Rather, being a seeker of high integrity and self-honesty, she wanted to die fully conscious and with a full understanding of the meaning of life — including the divine plan behind this world of pain.

Between the hours of 4 AM and 9 AM on May 8th, 1373 (… what is it with the 8th of the month …?), the 30-year-old Julian’s death-wish finally began to come true thanks to a terrible illness.  Well, almost. In fact, she had what we now call a near-death experience. And during this experience, she was given 16 profound insights (or “showings”) into the nature of God, man, Christ, sin, love, and suffering.

Julian not only survived the illness, she went on to live another 43 years as a contemplative recluse. From her hermit’s cell, a tiny outhouse that stood next to the equally tiny Church of St. Julian, in Norwich [2], she wrote about her experience. Her book, Revelations of Divine Love, is believed to be the first ever English-language book written by a woman. And it translates remarkably well for a modern audience (see the especially new translation by Mirabai Starr).

Of her 13th revelation, Julian writes:

It seemed to me that if there were no such things as sin, we would all be as pure as our Lord created us, reflecting his likeness … But in this showing Jesus gave me all that I needed:

“Sin is inevitable,” he said. “Yet all will be well, and all shall be well, and every kind of thing shall be well.”

 

[1] Her true name is lost to history, and it has been assumed that she took the name “Julian” from the little church of St. Julian where she resided, though it is equally possible that Julian/Gillian was her real name.

[2] The original church of St. Julian of Norwich was an Anglo-Saxon building, with an extension built in the Norman era. It was destroyed by a German bomb in 1942, then rebuilt in 1953.

The Nature of Arguments

Hi all

Many relationships run into arguments, from marital tiffs to inter-ethnic disputes, and everything in-between.

Below is something that came to me today while sitting on the toilet thinking about relationship difficulties (as you do). Having just reread it, I thought it worth sharing.

- barry

The Nature of Arguments

An argument is a verbal interaction that operates on two levels:

  1. CONSCIOUS   (overt / explicit)
  2. UNCONSCIOUS   (covert / implicit)

The conscious level is what the argument is seemingly about — superficially, but not really.

The unconscious level is what the argument is really about, without either person making it explicit, often because they are unaware of it.

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A dream, awakening, and healing: (2) Living with Kundalini

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— Previously on Personality & Spirituality
In the early hours of 8th September, 2014, I had a lucid dream in which I was aware that I wasn’t merely dreaming. In fact, I was in contact with the Causal plane teaching entity known as Michael, who proceeded to give me a Shaktipat initiation. This not only gave me a full-on experience of Self-Realisation, it also triggered a Kundalini awakening. Now read on.
Is it really less than a week since my first post about this? Good grief. So much is happening and things developing so quickly, it seems as if time has slowed down to a quarter of its usual speed.
It also seems important to record every detail as I go along, so now I’m keeping a journal. Not just for my benefit, but so that I will be able to share with others all the experiences and insights that are landing on me like snowflakes in a blizzard.
I can also see that there is probably a book in the pipeline!

A new me

Where to start? Well, there’s been an enormous list of changes since this began:

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A dream, awakening, and healing: My initiation from Michael

Ok, this is pretty phenomenal. And I don’t often say that when it’s just about me.

Some of you will know my recent history. I have been badly troubled with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome / M.E. since 2008. It’s a massive depletion of energy, which I’ve described as feeling like a frail 90-year-old with a bad dose of ‘flu.*
* If you want to know more, see my About page.
I had really feared that this was a permanent condition from which I would never recover. It has had a dramatic effect on my life, my work, my family, my income. Also my ability to run this website. It has severely dented my sense of worth as a person, an employee, a man, a father, and a husband.
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Me + M.E.

(July 2014)

Initiation in a dream

Around 2am on the morning of Monday 8th September, 2014, I had a very lucid (conscious) dream.

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Cynicism – bad for the brain?

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It has already been found that a cynical outlook is linked to heart disease. Now, research shows that people with high levels of cynicism in later life are also more likely to develop dementia.

Cynicism and Health

Dementia is a brain disease that gradually robs a person of intellectual abilities – memory, knowledge, thinking, language – which severely impacts their ability to function in daily life. The risk of dementia increases with age, and as more people are living longer, dementia is becoming more common.

According to a study published in the medical journal Neurology (May 2014),those with a high degree of cynicism in later life are much more likely to develop dementia than those with more positive attitudes.

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How to spot an Artisan soul

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Since starting this website I have had some wonderful exchanges with many readers. (Plus a few that have been frankly disturbing…). Some of these exchanges have evolved into collaborations of one sort or another.

One of my most insightful and entertaining collaborators is a guy named Rowan. He and I have had many fruitful discussions about the Michael teachings, and in particular about the way facial characteristics can often reveal an individual’s innermost essence (i.e. soul type and casting).

As an Old Priest, Rowan is quite intuitive and has been developing his ability to sense people’s essence and overleaves. He is very assiduous in his research, determined to hone his skill.

Every now and then Rowan sends me an enormous collection of photos of historical figures, people in the news, actors, pop stars and – I have to say – more than a few Z-list celebrities I’ve never heard of. A typical email starts: “Hey Barry, here’s 170 faces that I think are Warrior-cast Scholars – what do you think?” (Cue two hours of ultra-slow broadband while the photos download.)

Anyway, Rowan has given me his permission to start sharing some of his own insights, and here is one that made me laugh out loud.

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Dying To Be Me: an incredible NDE

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DYING TO BE ME

My Journey from Cancer, to Near Death, to True Healing

by Anita Moorjani

ANITA MOORJANI first came to the world’s attention when her near-death experience (NDE) was highlighted on the NDE Research Foundation website. [1] Her experience is remarkable not only for the life-changing and life-affirming insights she brought back with her, but also for the unprecedented and miraculous healing she underwent immediately afterwards.

In this book, she describes her life prior to that pivotal experience, the illness that almost took her life, the realm she experienced while in a seemingly lifeless coma, and the difference it has made to her life since.

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Children with past life memories wanted for TV

Ghost Inside My Child

Are you a parent whose child has experienced past life memories? Has your child ever mentioned memories of another life?

A Los Angeles TV production company* is looking for parents and children to participate in a new reality TV series.

The producers, Joke Fincioen and Biagio Messina, say that they are looking for children aged 2-10, preferably American, with tangible evidence of possible past life memories such as drawings, pictures, or video footage.

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‘Michael Speaks’ — the 1970s group transcripts are finally published

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The Center for Michael Teachings announces the release of print versions of the original Michael transcripts from the 1970s — Michael Speaks: The Legacy of Sarah Chambers.

“WE ARE HERE WITH YOU TODAY.”

With those few words appearing on a Ouija board in August 1973, Sarah Chambers, her husband, and a few close friends, started a journey that took them far beyond anything they could possibly imagine.

With their new teacher “Michael”, they explored the unseen realm of the spiritual world.  In doing so, they estabished a whole new spiritual teaching that helps us to know and become more of who we truly are.

For the history of the original group of five who first received the Michael teachings, see: History of the Original Michael Teachings Group at AdeptPath.net

Over the next few years, the Oakland-based group kept written transcripts of their meetings.  Those transcripts were copied and passed around to friends and coworkers, and in time found their way to many, many others.

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Peter Higgs – the reincarnation of Isaac Newton?

Speculating about the past lives of prominent individuals has become a pet hobby of mine. Because souls can develop expertise in a field over several lifetimes, I often wonder if someone highly accomplished today might have had a well-known and identifiable life before this one in a similar field of endeavour. It’s then a case of spotting facial similarity as well as other shared characteristics.

Here is what I came up with when I looked into Prof. Peter Higgs. He is the 83-year-old English physicist who gave his name to the “missing-link” particle which scientists now believe they finally have found: the Higgs boson.

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Tarot and the Michael Teachings

Here’s a fascinating new take on the Michael Teachings -

Long-time Michael teachings student and channel Stephen Cocconi has been working on a set of Tarot divination cards based on the teachings.

A Tarot deck represents different archetypal influences that we can encounter during our human journey. But whereas the traditional medieval Tarot using symbols like Magician, Cups, Wands, Swords, etc., the archetypes represented in Stephen’s deck are all based upon the soul and personality energies as described in the Michael teachings.

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“How near-death experiences are changing the world” – new video

david sunfellowDavid Sunfellow (right), head of the organization New Heaven New Earth, has compiled a 2-hour video on How Near-Death Experiences are Changing the World.

The video is based on talks about near-death experiences (NDEs) given by David in Sedona earlier this year.

It is split into two parts:

Part 1 (1 hr 7 min) gives an overview of the history of NDEs, their common themes and characteristics, and some global statistics. Unusually, perhaps, David begins by stating that NDEs can be related to the teachings of Jesus about the Kingdom of Heaven.

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Enlightenment Intensives

If you have ever wanted to experience for yourself a moment of genuine spiritual awakening, or if you simply want to know who you truly are, then an Enlightenment Intensive could be for you. Highly recommended.


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Spiritual Turning Points

A Metaphysical Perspective of the Seven Life Transitions

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A groundbreaking look at the Seven Life Transitions --

  • Birth
  • the Terrible Twos
  • Adolescence
  • Mid-life Crisis
  • Life Review
  • Dying
  • Death

-- through the lens of the Michael Teachings, Shamanism and Astrology.

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