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Manifestation – a big one

02 Jan 201121 Aug 2009 by barry

21 August 2009

My wife and I both got into the Abraham teachings at the same time, via separate routes. For me, Ask And It Is Given was one of those books that seemed to want me to buy it when I was browsing in a bookshop one day. In my wife’s case, she had been reading a different book entirely but noticed that it had been inspired by “the Hickses of Texas”. We tracked down the reference and found that it was Esther and Jerry Hicks, authors of Ask And It Is Given. Esther is the medium who channels the group-being known as Abraham.

I have written previously in my spiritual journal on our first experiments with manifestation and the law of attraction.

A spontaneous enlightenment experience

06 Nov 201123 Oct 2008 by barry

23 October 2008

Thursday afternoon, after work, I was sitting on the train as usual and decided to meditate. I do this quite often on the train but sometimes it just doesn’t work, either because it’s too crowded and noisy or because my head isn’t quite right. This time, however, it went very well—somehow I got everything “right”.

I was expecting to move gently into my usual blissful space but evidently I somehow went a step further. All I can remember doing differently was taking the technique to the limit, allowing the flow to the max, saying to myself something like “What if I let go of all resistance, totally? What if I could be a completely allowing being? What if, right now, my whole body and mind could be in perfect alignment with this flow of energy?”

Insight into body state and self-critical attitude

06 Nov 201110 Dec 2007 by barry

10 December 2007

My meditation has been up and down, the downs essentially being due to life disruptions causing me to occasionally miss my daily slot. (The main disruption being the fact that we have moved house.)

Whenever I miss meditation, even just for a day, it seems to take up to a week to get back where I was. Tonight was an odd one in that I first moved the chair I use into a different position in the room … and then spent the next half hour not quite feeling right.

There have, however, been some extremely deep and fulfilling meditations of late. Typically, I feel the great ‘hum’ of my being – my body and mind seem to fall into a natural resonance with this core hum – and it feels quite exquisitely peaceful and blissful.

Meditation as a dialogue

06 Nov 201102 Oct 2007 by barry

2 October 2007

I have been gradually moving away from that difficult place I mentioned back towards more expanded and blissful states.

One of the fascinating aspects of meditation is the way the very process of meditating somehow teaches you about meditation. I get into a kind of dialogue with “the spirit of meditation” in that I ask myself, or the universe, what needs to happen in me in order for me to become more at one, more in alignment, more open, more at peace, and so on. The answer is an intuitive sense of how better to focus my intention or open my awareness.

One good meditation

06 Nov 201120 Sep 2007 by barry

20 September 2007

A few days ago I was feeling a bit grotty and achy. I decided to stop drinking alcohol for a while and let my body get its energy back.

Yesterday I was feeling physically much better, though by the end of the day I had niggling back pain and was feeling impatient for a rest. So I wasn’t expecting much out of my evening meditation other than a bit of relaxation. But it turned into one of the most extraordinary meditations I’ve ever had.

Allowing myself to feel great

06 Nov 201115 Sep 2007 by barry

15 September 2007

My energy has been coming back, and yesterday (a Friday) was the best I have felt since my last operation two months ago. In fact it was one of my best days ever in terms of my mood and sense of being myself, comfortable in my own skin.

How have I got to this good state?

Highs and flat periods

06 Nov 201118 Aug 2007 by barry

18 August 2007

Over the last year I have had long phases of being more or less constantly high, alternating with shorter phases of feeling flat and occasionally rough, grouchy and irritable.

My highs are characterised by a wonderful sensation of being charged up internally, as though my cells were all magnetised into alignment. This sense of alignment is particularly marked in my head and face – my skin is stretched smooth, my nerves seem to be tingling with light, and in the vertical core of my entire upper body there seemed to be a constant, exquisite glow.

This manifestation stuff really works!

06 Nov 201109 Aug 2007 by barry

9 August 2007

Inspired by the Abraham books and one of the Orin/Daben books, I decided to try my hand at deliberate creation (rather than just maintaining the best possible inner state, which has been going very well – see earlier Manifestation posts in my spiritual journal). I should have kept specific dates, in good scholarly fashion, but here is what has happened so far.

The money connection

06 Nov 201108 Aug 2007 by barry

8 August 2007

One of the key developments I have made so far in 2007 is (re)discovering the books of Sanaya Rowan and Duane Packer, who channel beings known as Orin and Daben. Their writing speaks to me very directly – it has the clarity of Abraham and Michael along with the heart of Emmanuel.

One of the books that has really fed and inspired me is Creating Money. Sounds like a materialistic cash-in at first but really it is about the individual’s relationship to self and the universe and the impact of those relationships on quality of life. Money itself is framed as a physical/cultural form of the eternal inner qualities of abundance and freedom, and as such having access to money—which means not holding tightly onto a static pot of money but engaging in a dynamic, expansive flow of money—is a perfectly valid and worthy pursuit.