Meditation

The money connection

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8 August 2007

One of the key developments I have made so far in 2007 is (re)discovering the books of Sanaya Rowan and Duane Packer, who channel beings known as Orin and Daben. Their writing speaks to me very directly – it has the clarity of Abraham and Michael along with the heart of Emmanuel.

Creating MoneyOne of the books that has really fed and inspired me is Creating Money. Sounds like a materialistic cash-in at first but really it is about the individual’s relationship to self and the universe and the impact of those relationships on quality of life. Money itself is framed as a physical/cultural form of the eternal inner qualities of abundance and freedom, and as such having access to money—which means not holding tightly onto a static pot of money but engaging in a dynamic, expansive flow of money—is a perfectly valid and worthy pursuit.

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Insight into good states

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9 April 2007

Often when I achieve a high, good state, I wonder how on earth I got into it and how I can hold onto it.

Today, feeling brilliant after a sunny day on the beach, an insight came in my meditation. There are two things to do with a good state:

  1. enjoy it!
  2. share it — show it and inspire others to get the same
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A difficult time

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8 March 2007

Whoa — a lot’s been happening this year. Basically my dad had an operation that left him in constant severe pain, and having his bladder removed left him having to deal with living with a colostomy bag. I had a call last November to tell me that he was losing the will to live, and I flew up to see him. He confirmed that he did indeed want it to end — and was fed up with people telling him not to think like that. I got across to him that I accepted and understood what he was saying. He went from hospital ward to hospice to nursing home, and finally died on January 4th. The last time I saw him (about a week beforehand) he had looked grim: thin, weak, miserable, barely able to keep his eyes open. But I think he was reassured that there were no loose ends. I also wanted him to know that I was happy in life, though I’m not sure to what extent he could take it in.

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Ups and downs

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18 October 2006

I’ve read the second abraham book (The Amazing Power of Deliberate Intention) and am nearly finished the third, which I discovered hot off the press at Amazon (The Art of Allowing). Over the last couple of weeks I have found myself going from ecstatic and blissful states into more of a kind of contented steady state, with some occasional grumpiness intruding. In reading through the third book, however, I feel more in control of my states.

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“Getting” what I want

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23 September 2006

My energy is still great as a result of meditating and allowing – I mean, really great. I am going through the day in a generally uplifted feeling – with occasional dips of course, but my centre of gravity is hopeful and rising.

I have found that I can easily open up and allow, accepting the energy flowing through me, but I have not been so diligent in focusing on desires. What I find is that as soon as I focus on, say, prosperity, I get distracted by the things I’m ‘overlooking’, i.e. the other things I could be focusing on such as work or admin.

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More insights

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11 September 2006

I discovered yesterday that I have an underlying feeling of pessimism about my desires coming true. It’s a belief or expectation that it would be a bad move to have my desires met.

I contemplated this during my meditation and got that it relates to certain experiences in my youth when I felt humiliated. In one case it was about a girlfriend, in another it was about going to university. In both cases my desires had come true, but then after a while there had been a rotten, humiliating outcome. I think I got the impression that having my desires come true was just a route to humiliation, and I explained this to myself by deciding that “my desires are silly” and not worthy of fruition.

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Good vibrations

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9 September 2006

Thanks to my meditation (see Meditation Journal post: Ask And It Is Given) I have been having excellent ‘vibrational’ states – I can feel energy in me surging, throbbing, glowing. I wake up in the morning feeling soothed after a restful night rather than grouchy and sore.

I have been alternating between focusing on desires and allowing better feelings. It’s great!

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